Aug 3, 2014

Where Ever I'm With You

I'm finally home and I'm overwhelmed by so many bittersweet feelings.

On one hand, I get to finally see all my family, my friends, my boyfriend, after two and a half months without being able to see them. I missed them a whole damn lot and knowing they're all within reach again is a good feeling.

On the other hand, all the people I bonded with, shared unique experiences with during those months are now so far away. I know we won't all be in the same place at the same time again, which is pretty sad. As one of the guys said, I am in a state of "perpetual sadness."

Jul 21, 2014

In the Heights

It's been a while since I've written. Things have happened and things haven't happened but either way, I'm happy right now. I could say it's because I have feelings for someone that have been met halfway, but I wouldn't want to say that it's because of that. I'd like to say it's because I've been on an adventure.

Being in a city with so many people is overwhelming, especially since back home it's not crowded (which is something I love). I'm happier because everything's coming together and I feel like I have a chance of actually making something of myself in the future... and that makes me feel calmer and happier. Like I have more time to actually take advantage of what I have around me and all the open doors that are open and I once thought were closed, locked tight.

I only have 12 more days left in the city and I know I haven't done all I wanted to do over here, but I feel like I'm ready to go back home. I'm ready for what's to come and I believe this opportunity and experience will prepare me for a new part of my life where I am more in control of myself and my actions.

Mar 31, 2014


I'm going after what I want. No apologies and no regrets... hopefully.

Feb 22, 2014

Notes on Things to Write About


idea for writing



“If you were to press your heart close up against somebody else’s heart eventually your hearts will start beating at the same time. And two little babies in an incubator, their hearts will beat at the same time. Love that. So if you have somebody in your life that is prone to anxiety, like myself, and if you happen to be a calm person, you could come up and hug me heart to heart and my heart hopefully would slow to yours. And I just love that idea. Or maybe yours would speed up to mine. But either way, we’ll be there together.”

—   Andrea Gibson

Feb 16, 2014

Carpe Diem?

Eros. Life. Vida.
          life is about mistakes. sucking the marrow out of life. taking it all in. no regrets. putting your finger on Life's pulse and feeling it go wild. a stream of conciousness. until it ends. then the Grim Reaper will come by to take you far.

Tanatos. Death. Muerte.
          death is about endings. fear and death go hand in hand for some. i think that's inevitable. some people chase after death with bloody razors and weary bodies that are exhausted, tired of Eros.

Eros & Tanatos. Life & Death. Vida & Muerte.
     Two Sides Of The Same Coin